Tuesday 5 January 2010

Its 2010. okay this post is late... ive been wanting to blog about the new year a few days ago... but kinda didnt have the mood n time.. cos e com's always occupied n all when my bro's back..

2009 seems like a dream. the holidays seemed like a dream too. feels weird. holidays aint a blast for me. rotting at home.. Etc. i dont even know what im doing for 2009.. except olvl.. feel that i havent done enough for it.. im already regretting for god knows how long. physics totally sucks(or should i say its just me). for SPA n MCQ. Eng too. i hope i wont fail Hmt.. At least a C6. think i'll be really disappointed on the result day. which is like coming real soon.

okay.. Ive like blog-hopped the past few days. lotsa ppl came up with their new year resolutions + some dedications too..

Anw, i was suppose to have a new blog... but ive realized that my url that i created like months ago was a lil too lame. -.- too bad.. i can only think of lame names. zzz.

Hmm.. for my new year resolutions... i'll think on the spot.. probably i'll fulfill it when the year comes to an end.

1. Get into a JC ! Study super hard cos i have to stay afloat & be in the above average category if i get into a lousy one.
2. Be a better person? in any way. hmm maybe like...try not to procrastinate etc..? thou habits die hard...
3. Not be an introvert ! or rather, be more friendly n "open" to those i dare not talk to. -.- yeah. since school is starting alrdy.
4. FASTER? cos my frens always complain that im slow. :(
5. Stay in contact & be closer with my current friends :)

Eh. i think thats all ?

Thanks to everybody that made 2009 wonderful. like all the random outings & events.. & of course, the special people of my life (:

Okay ive decided that the dedication part will be up on my new blog..

Ask me for it if u'r interested (:

ohyeah. HAPPY NEW YEAR.

what we could have been, 16:40.

Sunday 3 January 2010

1 Jan 10, 23:33
Tommy: Hi smelly...=D
>>Tommy...? Er lols.

31 Dec 09, 00:49
hongzhou: =.= maybe u nid some luck..
>>Yeah. maybe...

30 Dec 09, 11:49
YT: ANYWAY U LOOK THE SAME LOR LOL
>>i dont look the same.. i was white/fair alright.. n my eyes dont look small. -.-..

30 Dec 09, 11:48
YT: U DON'T EVEN KNOW DAFFY'S NAME!!!!!!!!!
>>EH WHAT. i knew theres this thing called daffy duck just dont know that black one is... lol

30 Dec 09, 00:57
hongzhou: lol ur childhood face so cute =3 haha not like u leh.
>>ERM. wtv~ whose childhood face not cute de.. haha..

25 Dec 09, 12:59
wt: lastly,merry christmas! :D
>>yeah. now happy new year already.. was like suppose to have an update ytd...

25 Dec 09, 12:58
wt: complaning like auntie like tht hahah but it is funny when the 2 womans say why got bbq smell LOLOLO
>>LOL. i rmb that too.. n u still say its not us.. e gift a name part timer said smth bout seoul garden.

25 Dec 09, 12:58
wt: yess muffins1!! lol just change your name to wanfong then and we can be the trios!!! :) btw yes,keep
>>eh muffins another time ? when you go my house. haha. wan fong not nice.. wan fang sounds weird. i prefer my own. lols.. thou its "cheena-ish"..

25 Dec 09, 12:57
wt: and i can become a chef :) though the chef hat a bit small for me...
>>haha.. somebody button wrongly still wana be chef ~

25 Dec 09, 12:57
wt: i got scammed too for the job -.- but still it is okay la
>>hmm yeah. but i prefer others..like Mr bean or wtv de.. no need injections n all. lol

25 Dec 09, 12:57
wt: I MIND!!! hahah jkjk.zzz you v lazy leh.lol i dont miss g-man...he is not (feel in yourself) :D and
>>hes not.... M?? haha

what we could have been, 23:16.

To: You-know-who-you-are.
Ive been thinking a lot too..since ytd. maybe, before that ?

ive been asked the same question over again. i wanted to know why too...was it because i never did try hard enough to like you or was it because you rly felt like a bro to me ? e feeling of him pushing me to you hurts. thou it was a misunderstand on my part.. but i know he wants e best for me. you too.
some times i rly hate it. hate to choose. n it seems like ive always done the wrong things n regretting my actions. this time.. probably not. i cant be sure too. think thats my character flaw. not being decisive enough.
Hope you felt better after the talk. mayb then, you can forget me. i didnt know what to say to you. yeah. really apologetic that you have to go through this.. even if you say i dont have to be. dont know how to help too.
didnt know your friends thought of me that way. but mayb from a third party's point of view i'l think like this too. am i not a simple person ? idk. sometimes i dont even know the reason why i am doing this.
maybe i shouldnt have cared that much. idk. maybe its because 欠你的真的太多了. guilt conscious ? saying bout this. maybe thats the reason why i cant accept you. cos i'l never return it the same way as you do.

No, i wont hate you. Really.
thou sometimes you've been the cause of the unhappiness between me n him. i dont blame you. cos life has to go on. we have to learn to overcome it. also proves that theres rly smth to strengthen on for our relationship.

im sorry if i can only say this here. not in your face or anything. cant bring myself to. its more of like an after thought.. which happens most of the time for me.. cant rly like sort out my feelings or smth right on the spot. another character flaw.

yes, sorry. i cant be perfect too. some times really not worth the effort like what your friends say. & i think so too. Although ive been trying to tell you that...
Am i really worth the pain & sorrows ?

Rmb this, 不要为一个不值得你伤心的人伤心流泪，值得让你这么做的人不会让你哭.

Edit/
其实失败的不是你，是一直选择逃避的我。但现在已经学着面对。希望你也是吧。

Thanks for letting me understand myself better.

what we could have been, 22:27.