Friday, 25 September 2009
Prelim2 ended.
chem ? idk what to say about it. i was drifting off half the time. reason? i dont wana say bout it now.
im currently feeling rather _. plus that admirer/crush at Cia's blog made me pissed. today is a bad day. all e things come at the wrong time n idk why this is happening. the taggers at her Tb is srsly making me worst x5 even though i its just some pranks. yes like hello ? why did i care so much. cant help it feeling ACCUSED when ppl say im ACCUSING them with the additional fact that it is true AT ALL. u make me say all the words that i shouldnt(in a fit of anger). couldnt care. wouldnt care now. whatever.
Anw, i finally went out to see e world for a few hours today(-.-). trying my best to chill out and loosen a lil. cant afford to. but i have to.
the rooftop is a comfortable place. nice ambience nice weather. wished i could stay longer. its actually i time whereby i feel "disconnected" from the things around me n enjoy some time alone.
the pool's water is amazing. maybe i havent been to one since sec2... but yeah. its great under e hot sun sitting at e edge, waddling around...rly relaxes one mind(& body?).
yeah. actually theres nothing much going on... so yeah. im like at my Mum's office doing this now...
i'll jus end here for today i guess.
Bye.
To:You-know-who-you are(hopefully u will be clever enough to see this),
this came rly out of the blue. like when i open my eyes i saw that? i didnt know it was you. it was a feeling that i havent felt for a long time ? idk how to phrase it. was it disappointment? emptiness? or heartbreak? maybe all of those, tgt at once?
did u even mean it when u said ur "last words"? it didnt matter n i dont feel like replying. if u prefer, so be it.
i once cherished the friendship we shared. it was one that i thought wouldnt end that easily? seems like it a right assumption. im not that a great person for you either, am i?
have i made the wrong choice to rely on a person?
you were someone i trusted. felt comfortable with. reason to be happy for. can confide to when i needed help. at least someone who would cheer me up when i feel down. someone important? more than "just friends" ? idk now,
never expected one simple sms could have had u swiped off the top list. or maybe u'r still there. im rly not sure now.
whats with all the weirdness ? maybe u'r/im pushing it too far. or its just me.
remember the time that i knew you? it was as sudden as it ended.
okay. thats just it.
taking a break isnt a bad idea huh. we'll all get over it, right? if you can, i can. if you cant, idk what to say because u'r e one walking out on me.
oh well. i believe i can still remain my coolness about it n hide it in some corner of my heart ? maybe not.
what we could have been, 16:42.
