Saturday, 15 August 2009
Ignorance is a bliss,
Life had been real bad these days. lots of things happened. small things ? big things ?
for some(okay 1 in particular), gave some advices which i werent even sure it was helpful. but yeah. i glad i was part of ur "SOS" dude (:
Sometwo, i had to guess this guess that, not knowing if my assumptions were right. why ? cos i was told nothing by anyone except from some "outsider". oh well, everyone has their reasons, im clear about that too.
somethree, i didnt know what to say. although these small secrets were made known to me but i felt that it was a lil absurd. i was shocked. i act like i didnt know. it didnt matter to me anyway. i accept you for who you are.
somefour, idk if im suppose to be glad cos i told you those stuff. im more afraid that u would be bias cos u always tend to be a lil unknowingly.. but i think u tried ur best to not be luh. so ya. hmm..theres nobody who should be very right or very wrong. but all i can say is. both are wrong.
yes, its fine they act like this cos they too, are humans.
Life complicates as we become older ?
its hard to be frank because we know that we'll hurt the feelings of others if we do it the wrong way.
you know what ? 做人难，做好人更难。
we have to think about this, think about that, cause n effect etc. its so tiring.
no wonder people wana commit suicide. but on a second thought, if u have the courage to commit suicide, why dont you have e courage to live?
Fyi, i actually once had e thought of commit suicide. or should i say not once, but many times.
thinking that everything will end e moment ur heart stops beating ? it isnt true. we will leave those who care for us(family n friends) to live their lifes in our shadow cleaning all the "烂摊子". so obviously, if you love them, you would continue living rather than bring misery to everyone.
okay im a lil sidetracking...
haix. i hope things can be resolved asap. if everyone give in to one another things wld be easier. having understanding is not enough. each party must first learn not to be stubborn. giving in is another thing. wanting to give in is another thing.
okay im such a crappy person.
it reminds me of that incident. i cant believe that thinking back, i realized acted so foolishly on my own will. was it worth it ? idk. i was betting on it wondering if it'll work out. i had to ditch a friend to get closer to the other party. which in other words. betray. i was seen like that. i didnt mind its e only chance im given when they asked. you know ? like, now or never ? its hard to say. i had it planned. tryin to be a spy for both parties. being a hypocrite. it sucks. nobody knew. nobody cared anw.
those ppl reading this would go something like "i dont know u are so sly" or smth like "you acted on your own accord, nobody told u so"
i felt that i was self centered. i didnt bother.
shant talk about this any longer. im getting emotional. or, i already am.
realized girls play basketball differently as compared to those who are really playing that area of sports ? okay actually the girl part might only apply for me.
i went to play bb just now. despite my pile of hmwk. then this dude didnt wana pass to me despite nobody blocking me. -.- e reason was because im not close to e hoop. -.- nvm. we abit no mo4 qi4... wasnt very active. practically standing there n waiting for e ball to come which never did. oh well...think was a lil moody n stuff like that.
anw, nice game (: although i cause u to run like shit. sorry(if u will ever see this) -.-
ohyes. & i owe you twooooooooo treats!
was suppose to come back half happy but now everythings gone. Zzz.
im gona go bathe.
Life had been real bad these days. lots of things happened. small things ? big things ?
for some(okay 1 in particular), gave some advices which i werent even sure it was helpful. but yeah. i glad i was part of ur "SOS" dude (:
Sometwo, i had to guess this guess that, not knowing if my assumptions were right. why ? cos i was told nothing by anyone except from some "outsider". oh well, everyone has their reasons, im clear about that too.
somethree, i didnt know what to say. although these small secrets were made known to me but i felt that it was a lil absurd. i was shocked. i act like i didnt know. it didnt matter to me anyway. i accept you for who you are.
somefour, idk if im suppose to be glad cos i told you those stuff. im more afraid that u would be bias cos u always tend to be a lil unknowingly.. but i think u tried ur best to not be luh. so ya. hmm..theres nobody who should be very right or very wrong. but all i can say is. both are wrong.
yes, its fine they act like this cos they too, are humans.
Life complicates as we become older ?
its hard to be frank because we know that we'll hurt the feelings of others if we do it the wrong way.
you know what ? 做人难，做好人更难。
we have to think about this, think about that, cause n effect etc. its so tiring.
no wonder people wana commit suicide. but on a second thought, if u have the courage to commit suicide, why dont you have e courage to live?
Fyi, i actually once had e thought of commit suicide. or should i say not once, but many times.
thinking that everything will end e moment ur heart stops beating ? it isnt true. we will leave those who care for us(family n friends) to live their lifes in our shadow cleaning all the "烂摊子". so obviously, if you love them, you would continue living rather than bring misery to everyone.
okay im a lil sidetracking...
haix. i hope things can be resolved asap. if everyone give in to one another things wld be easier. having understanding is not enough. each party must first learn not to be stubborn. giving in is another thing. wanting to give in is another thing.
okay im such a crappy person.
it reminds me of that incident. i cant believe that thinking back, i realized acted so foolishly on my own will. was it worth it ? idk. i was betting on it wondering if it'll work out. i had to ditch a friend to get closer to the other party. which in other words. betray. i was seen like that. i didnt mind its e only chance im given when they asked. you know ? like, now or never ? its hard to say. i had it planned. tryin to be a spy for both parties. being a hypocrite. it sucks. nobody knew. nobody cared anw.
those ppl reading this would go something like "i dont know u are so sly" or smth like "you acted on your own accord, nobody told u so"
i felt that i was self centered. i didnt bother.
shant talk about this any longer. im getting emotional. or, i already am.
realized girls play basketball differently as compared to those who are really playing that area of sports ? okay actually the girl part might only apply for me.
i went to play bb just now. despite my pile of hmwk. then this dude didnt wana pass to me despite nobody blocking me. -.- e reason was because im not close to e hoop. -.- nvm. we abit no mo4 qi4... wasnt very active. practically standing there n waiting for e ball to come which never did. oh well...think was a lil moody n stuff like that.
anw, nice game (: although i cause u to run like shit. sorry(if u will ever see this) -.-
ohyes. & i owe you twooooooooo treats!
was suppose to come back half happy but now everythings gone. Zzz.
im gona go bathe.
what we could have been, 18:01.
