Thursday, 3 July 2008
oral today was a total screw up. my first olvl paper is a GONER already.
im having a heavyyyyyyy heart right now. from the time when i stepped out of the hall i suppose.
how great can a mental block be during ORALS? goddamn.
my passage was alrdy vv jialat when i make stupid mistakes like stumbling over words n thinking that e 挥霍 is hui jia[?!?!]. it sounded rly wrong luh. but i was like, eh, that one not huo yuan jia meh, den without much COMMON SENSE i have no idea why i thought its JIA? when its two completely diff thing. MY GODDDDDDD. how could i have made his kind of error. two words pronounced wrongly plus another two mistakes. it was not as well readddddddd as compared to e time when i was practicing ! ARGHHHHHHH.
conversation is worse. its about youth olympics. i didnt speak for VERY LONG. & ppl.. stop having e misconception that i spoke for 7mins+ when i stoned for 1+ min without saying a thing. rmb to minus off the reading passage alright.
oh my. can u imagine how sad is my situation ? HOW AWKWARD IT IS TO STARE AT EACH OTHER FOR SO LONG N NOT SAYING A WORD?!?! i practically ans their three questions ONLY. not much elaboration. i cant THINK. i kena brain freeze-d after my first line lor. i've read about this article for quite a few times but i was MONTHS AGO?!?! my stm problem is also workin on me at e moment FYI. # *$& ^%$@)* i didnt say about ECONOMIC GROWTH !! I REALIZED THAT WHEN I WENT OUT ! damn. that an impt point lor.
i really wonder how did that HAMSTER scrape through with a distinction. maybe times are diff now. it'll b not as easy...
btw i was fumbling with my file thing during convo coz i was too nervous. e button sound is obviously making me even more nervous when i couldnt think of anything. plus during e testing with zeng lao shi my mind oso alrdy not that clear liao. maybe like shen zhi bu qing liddat. idk luh. i dont even know what im thinking, what im saying, what THEY are saying. im just not very into the situation. haiix.
gosh. great chunk up above eh ?
anw, thanks people for your consoles yea.. maybe i should try not to think about it again. its really preventing me from moving on. JIAYOU FOR WRITTEN PAPER. i hope oral wont pull me down that much.. i fear my A would start drifting away.. I WANT MY A ! getting one should be something easy. for a hmt student. BUT. i have no idea whether im up to it.
-chem-ed at the lab. mr lim did some experiments. the mixing of chemicals looks funnnnnn !
-PE . VOLLEYBALLLLLLLLLLLLLL ! my hand still hurts ! the ball is going all over e place.. n i accidentally hit a few ppl.. THE GREEN MONSTER IS ON E OTHER TEAM -.- together with the SMALL WAIST GUY. paired with jiaying. its FUN DE LOR ~ hahaha. mr yeo was like asking us to write the 3 steps of volleyball for our geog class test. VERY LAME. haha.
-GEOG ISNT FUN. god damn. i studied for oral n i had no time for this damn thing. in the end all that i've studied cant be used. -.- i hope i didnt do badly for this test.. we having another one nxt thurs. ZZZ LOR.
-yt thought its recess n went to change.. -.- ! yes wf, i think shes still in her LOWER SEC time.
-cube-d during recess. seems quite diff to turn.. i mean its not like joels FLEXI cube. haha. maybe wy can put some lubricant in it.
-left at 12.45 for our oral thing. thought we could have skipped some maths. -.-..
-ORAL.
-i did a damn stupid thing in e library. i think im not in my right mind. -.- damn.. IM SO CCH-y. argh. i thought i could never do such a thing, -.- . too bad im just despo to get outta e library. LOL.
-went to look around at e quadrangle for e netbiies.. found that they were preparing for the board thing for coach n ms tok. uhuh. its meant to be a surprise for them.. n WHY MUST THEY LEAVE SO SOON?!?! WHY DID COACH DO THAT?!?! we are so pathetic. -.- we got abandoneddddddd. -.- nvm i'll stop that. erm. kinda helped in e cutting n drawing of hearts.. sian-ed. -.- actually theres nth much to do luh.. so me n ada went home afterwards..
ok thats the end of my rantings about my O-M-G-W-T-F ORAL. n my boring life. #*($&&%0
im trying real hard to believe in myself.
im having a heavyyyyyyy heart right now. from the time when i stepped out of the hall i suppose.
how great can a mental block be during ORALS? goddamn.
my passage was alrdy vv jialat when i make stupid mistakes like stumbling over words n thinking that e 挥霍 is hui jia[?!?!]. it sounded rly wrong luh. but i was like, eh, that one not huo yuan jia meh, den without much COMMON SENSE i have no idea why i thought its JIA? when its two completely diff thing. MY GODDDDDDD. how could i have made his kind of error. two words pronounced wrongly plus another two mistakes. it was not as well readddddddd as compared to e time when i was practicing ! ARGHHHHHHH.
conversation is worse. its about youth olympics. i didnt speak for VERY LONG. & ppl.. stop having e misconception that i spoke for 7mins+ when i stoned for 1+ min without saying a thing. rmb to minus off the reading passage alright.
oh my. can u imagine how sad is my situation ? HOW AWKWARD IT IS TO STARE AT EACH OTHER FOR SO LONG N NOT SAYING A WORD?!?! i practically ans their three questions ONLY. not much elaboration. i cant THINK. i kena brain freeze-d after my first line lor. i've read about this article for quite a few times but i was MONTHS AGO?!?! my stm problem is also workin on me at e moment FYI. # *$& ^%$@)* i didnt say about ECONOMIC GROWTH !! I REALIZED THAT WHEN I WENT OUT ! damn. that an impt point lor.
i really wonder how did that HAMSTER scrape through with a distinction. maybe times are diff now. it'll b not as easy...
btw i was fumbling with my file thing during convo coz i was too nervous. e button sound is obviously making me even more nervous when i couldnt think of anything. plus during e testing with zeng lao shi my mind oso alrdy not that clear liao. maybe like shen zhi bu qing liddat. idk luh. i dont even know what im thinking, what im saying, what THEY are saying. im just not very into the situation. haiix.
gosh. great chunk up above eh ?
anw, thanks people for your consoles yea.. maybe i should try not to think about it again. its really preventing me from moving on. JIAYOU FOR WRITTEN PAPER. i hope oral wont pull me down that much.. i fear my A would start drifting away.. I WANT MY A ! getting one should be something easy. for a hmt student. BUT. i have no idea whether im up to it.
-chem-ed at the lab. mr lim did some experiments. the mixing of chemicals looks funnnnnn !
-PE . VOLLEYBALLLLLLLLLLLLLL ! my hand still hurts ! the ball is going all over e place.. n i accidentally hit a few ppl.. THE GREEN MONSTER IS ON E OTHER TEAM -.- together with the SMALL WAIST GUY. paired with jiaying. its FUN DE LOR ~ hahaha. mr yeo was like asking us to write the 3 steps of volleyball for our geog class test. VERY LAME. haha.
-GEOG ISNT FUN. god damn. i studied for oral n i had no time for this damn thing. in the end all that i've studied cant be used. -.- i hope i didnt do badly for this test.. we having another one nxt thurs. ZZZ LOR.
-yt thought its recess n went to change.. -.- ! yes wf, i think shes still in her LOWER SEC time.
-cube-d during recess. seems quite diff to turn.. i mean its not like joels FLEXI cube. haha. maybe wy can put some lubricant in it.
-left at 12.45 for our oral thing. thought we could have skipped some maths. -.-..
-ORAL.
-i did a damn stupid thing in e library. i think im not in my right mind. -.- damn.. IM SO CCH-y. argh. i thought i could never do such a thing, -.- . too bad im just despo to get outta e library. LOL.
-went to look around at e quadrangle for e netbiies.. found that they were preparing for the board thing for coach n ms tok. uhuh. its meant to be a surprise for them.. n WHY MUST THEY LEAVE SO SOON?!?! WHY DID COACH DO THAT?!?! we are so pathetic. -.- we got abandoneddddddd. -.- nvm i'll stop that. erm. kinda helped in e cutting n drawing of hearts.. sian-ed. -.- actually theres nth much to do luh.. so me n ada went home afterwards..
ok thats the end of my rantings about my O-M-G-W-T-F ORAL. n my boring life. #*($&&%0
im trying real hard to believe in myself.
what we could have been, 22:15.
